Love, the True Meaning

Love. A word that is thrown around so much it begins to lose meaning. Especially these days. Love Trumps Hate. Stupid saying, especially the way it is used. Especially by the people saying it, the ones rioting and burning things and beating up people. All because they didn’t get their way. Love? I think not.
In an effort to reclaim the word love, to give it meaning, I am going to list the things I love. Things, not people, I am taking people out of the equation for now. Everyone knows my world really revolves around my children and Tess, so for my purposes today I am taking them off the table.
Here we go, now these are not in any order:

Books, I guess I did start in order, books were my first love and remain steadfast in my life. No matter what is going on in my life, how chaotic or even how calm, I can rely on books. Through words on paper I have traveled the world and beyond. I have time traveled backwards and forwards, I have never been disappointed nor felt reading was a waste of my time. Well, with the exception of one book that shall remain nameless.
Chocolate: dark chocolate, milk chocolate, chocolate candy, ice cream, popcorn and hot chocolate. It is not limited to those things listed, those are just the first ones that come to mind. I have had a lifelong affair with chocolate and I do not see that diminishing any time soon.
Coffee, what can I say about the elixir of life, the aroma, the way it makes me feel alive. All flavors, almost all additives, nothing artificial, it just makes life worth living.
Television, scripted television, I love television, it entertains us, enlightens us, makes us sad, happy, makes us remember, makes us forget. Makes us fall in love and fall out of love, television is always there for me even when the world is falling apart.
Shoes, when nothing else looks good on me, shoes never fail me. The different colors, styles, the way they can make me feel when I put a new pair on. The way Betsy Johnson makes her sky high strappy sandals makes me weep. There is nothing like a good pair of shoes or boots to lift ones’ spirits. Try it.
Snow, it is the great equalizer, the way it covers everything, sparkling, white, sometimes so white it shimmers blue. The way it silences all the noise, it is an insulator, giving us respite from a worrisome world. It is God’s way of saying He loves me, I look forward to it, need it, want it, crave the snow. If you need me, I’ll be outside doing a snow dance later today.
Dean Cain, yes, Dean Cain, he just makes me happy, he was and is the prettiest man on the face of the planet. Not only is he pretty, he’s smart, well read, well-spoken and out spoken. I do love a pretty man who not only looks good in tights, but can eloquently speak his mind and get his point across without cursing and screaming. I don’t know what I would do if I ever meet him. I would like to think I could keep geeky Angie under control and suddenly acquire a mantle of sophistication and worldliness. Not squeal and well, not Baio out on him. That is still one of the most shameful moments of my life.
There you have it folks, love, real love, begins with a book and ends with Dean Cain.

Commonalities with Dean Cain

I’m a little bit late with this, but as they say, better late than never. It seems in July of this year, 2016 to be exact, Dean Cain did a 25 things you don’t know about me interview with US Magazine.
So, just for fun, I thought we might go through the list and see what he and I have in common, buckle up, it’s going to be fun:

  1. I am adopted.
    Me: OMG! I am adopted as well! So much in common already!
  2. I’ve never met my biological father.
    Me: hmmm I met mine once. Was not pleasant, you had the better experience there.
  3. I am a quarter Japanese.
    Me: I’m part Viking! See, so much in common! They are both warrior types.
  4. I’m a middle child.
    Me: I am the youngest, so not so much there. Moving on.
  5. I grew up in Malibu with Sean Penn, Chris Penn, Rob Lowe, Chad Lowe, Emilio Estevez, Charlie Sheen and Holly Robinson Peete, among others.
    Me: I’m from Owasso! It’s practically the Malibu of Oklahoma!

  6. I used to be a decent surfer. (Sean Penn was a great surfer.)
    Me: I’m an ex-skater, wow, this is just uncanny. I don’t know how we haven’t met.

  7. I graduated from Princeton University with a bachelor’s degree in history.
    Me: I love history, however was Journalism was what I was majoring in, life got in the way. I would have minored in history. So there’s that.
  8. I was an All-American football player at Princeton.
    Me: next
  9. I still hold two NCAA records: My career interceptions per game average was 0.73, and I had an average of 1.2 interceptions per game in a single season.
    Me: next again
  10. I love dogs. Cats, not so much.
    I have dogs! That I love, I also have a cat, but he could be a really fluffy dog if you squint.
  11. I briefly played professional football for the Buffalo Bills.
    Me: man, this harder than I thought.
  12. I’ve had six different surgeries, which explains the “briefly” in my last answer.
    Me: I’ve had surgeries! Back to being alike. Whew!
  13. I cook every day.
    Me: OMG I eat every day!
  14. I’m a writer and have written dozens of scripts. (Three set to go in 2016!)
    Me: wow, this is amazing even me, I write on the internet all the time. No one reads me, but I still write. Actually, I’ve been writing all my life. I love words, you can do so much with them, encourage, love, inform, decimate, incriminate and so much more.
  15. I’m a homebody.
    Me: I’m at home now!
  16. I have a 15-year-old son named Christopher, after my adoptive father.
    Me: my children are grown, but I did name my youngest son after my ancestor that came to America in 1774 and fought with the Continental Army.
  17. My son is my favorite human. I’m 6 feet, and he’s taller than me.
    Me: my children are my favorite humans! And 2 are taller than me. (sorry Elizabeth Anne)
  18. I love being a dad.
    Me: I LOVE being a mom!
  19. I am fascinated with military history.
    Me: no exaggeration here, I am completely fascinated with history, specifically American History. There has been a member of my family serving in the military since 1774. You name the branch and one of us has been in it, I am completely fascinated by the inherited patriotism we all have.
  20. I’m an avid video game player, especially World of Warcraft and Call of Duty.
    Me: hmmm does Tetris count?
  21. I love watching football. Any football. Anytime.
    Me: next
  22. I cannot stand tailgaters while driving. Seriously, where are you going?
    Me: wow, seriously, I do believe we are soulmates, and I don’t believe in soulmates!
  23. I speak decent Spanish.
    Me: does Klingon count as a language? Oh! I speak California Valley Girl, Oklahoman, Southern and Texan.
  24. I’m a sucker for a genuine smile — and kindness and happiness.
    Me: I love to smile!
  25. I’m still looking for my future wife.
    Me: I don’t know how to respond to this as someone might not be too happy with me.

Well there you have it folks, Dean Cain and I have so much in common! I don’t even know how on earth we have never met.
As always, if there is a question or comment you don’t want published, my email address is angie@angieworld.com

Losing Dean

Ok, so, this has to be a hoax, I just read on the Internet, that cannot be trusted, that Dean Cain is married! And it’s not to me!!! How can this be? How can Dean Cain be married and it not be me?

Pesky reality facts do not matter here; I am seriously wounded if this is true. Yes, I know, he has never met me, the likelihood of him meeting me are zero, however, this does not lesson my fantasy pain.

Oh, and yes, I do realize I am engaged to a real life man, like I said, details are irrelevant in this situation. I am wounded to my core! What am I supposed to do with this gossip?

You know it’s a sad, sad day when one cannot open a browser and see bad news. I fully believed he would be eternally single; waiting on me, the one, he would never meet.

I shall never recover from this betrayal of my fake boyfriend, like EVER. I have turned on my internal dialogue with a valley girl accent, yes, it is that bad. Superman has left the building, no, the planet, never to be seen again.

I shall mourn our fake relationship with all of the attention it deserves. And while I know the below photo is not Dean, it is Superman. Let us all take a moment to mourn the married state of Superman.

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Dean Cain Goodness

So I saw an episode of The new Dean Cain show, wow, he is even better looking! How did this happen? He is sporting an evil Spock look. I am more in love now! Yes, I know if I ever met him in person a) I would make a donkey out of myself 2) he would not even give me a first glance III) I am too old and too fat for him to notice. I can still look at him and dream, age and unattractiveness cannot take that away from me.
I am so tired today, yesterday was a full day with not only Tessa but two additional little girls. We went swimming, then Jump Street, McDonald’s rounded out with a trip to Costco. I need a week to recover! Sleep is elusive, it is not my friend. I am hoping I can catch up this weekend.
Well I am done for now, I have to quit writing to continue dreaming of Dean!

The Pursuit of Happiness?

There is something that has been on my mind a lot lately, and no, it isn’t Dean Cain, well, alright, it is, but not this time. This time I want to talk about how people bandy about the word happy. It all started with the hippies, do whatever makes you happy, whatever makes you feel good. I am going to tell you right now that is really no way to live, and I will tell you why I believe it is no way to live your life.
If I did whatever made me happy, I would sit around watching old episodes of All My Children and eating nothing but puffy cheetos and chocolate. Also throw in some Buffy, Angel, Dollhouse and Firefly and you have my complete happy experience. But wait, let’s add-on some Lois and Clark; the new Adventures of Superman and well you have just made my happiness meter go off the charts.
I do not do those things because I would end up being 800 pounds and after a while my brain would atrophy.
I do what is necessary, I hold down a full-time job, after all they don’t pay you to sit around looking for new pictures of Dean Cain on the internet. Oh, wait, is that a real job? I must check into that. I digress. I take care of a household, make sure the Irishman has his medicines and eats halfway decent and I shop. Now add radio personality, well, ok that makes me happy.
I would suggest everyone stop this notion that you have to be happy, pursue joy, peace, those are the things we should be pursuing. There are many things that give me great joy, helping someone fix their internet so they can talk to their family. That gives me joy, picking up my granddaughter every other Friday from school, gives me immense joy. Talking to my children, hearing that their lives are going well, gives me peace.
This week, your mission, if you so choose to accept it, will be to put aside the notion of happiness and instead understand what joy and peace are. Find things that make your soul peaceful, and gives you great joy. Understand that sometimes wanting the things that inspire happiness are a little selfish, perhaps if the rest of the world set aside doing things that make them happy and focus on others then the world might just improve a little.

Thankful List

I have totally missed saying something I am thankful for every day on Facebook, so I will say all thirty things here, now, buckle up:

1. I am thankful that I know a Gracious and Loving God that forgives my transgressions. I pray daily that I am able to forgive others.
2. I am thankful that I have the children that I have, I have seen other peoples and it’s not pleasant, so to my children, thank you for being simply amazing.
3. I am thankful that I have the friends that I do, I don’t know what I ever did to deserve any of you, but I am thankful you remain my friend.
4. I am thankful for my love of animals, I believe a love of our furry and feathered friends show real humanity.
5. I am thankful that I live in the middle of the country and am not on a coast that is hit by tsunamis, hurricanes, earthquakes and torrential storms.
6. I am thankful to live in a country that when those things do happen, all states send help to the people that were hard hit. We are a caring country that comes together no matter what our political believes to help our fellow man.
7. I am thankful to our men and women who serve in the military, you are simply the best of the best, you are the definition of who we are.
8. I am thankful for my job, major telecommunications corporation you literally saved my family from poverty. I will be forever grateful for the opportunities you have given me.
9. I am thankful for technology, as much as we all lament how it is isolating us, I do believe with the current natural disaster we can see how fantastically helpful it has been in keeping us all in the loop with opportunities to help.
10. I am thankful for a new beginning every morning.
11. I am thankful for Starbucks, you feed my addiction, you are always there for me, and I love you.
12. I am thankful I have a roof over my head.
13. I am thankful I have a car to drive
14. I am thankful I can afford whatever I want to eat, I have choices
15. I am thankful for my health, I am the healthiest person alive, and I am thankful for my farm girl background that has, I believe, given me my fortitude.
16. I am thankful for freedom of speech.
17. I am thankful for all of the recent opportunities I have had to walk out of my comfort zone and do something differently.
18. I am thankful for boots, seriously, what would my life be without my kickin’ boots? Dull, so very dull.
19. I am thankful for freedom of speech.
20. I am thankful for books, that all of our technology has not wiped out ink to paper. There is nothing more relaxing for me than to hold a book and read it. I love the feel of the book, the weight, the smell, everything about books.
21. I am thankful the Irishman is getting healthier. It has been a long, hard road to health for him and I am thankful he is in a good stretch right now.
22. I am thankful for angieworld, it gives me a platform to spout whatever I want, no one has to read it, however, it is incredibly cathartic for me.
23. I am thankful for Dean Cain. That’s all.
Ok, I can’t do 30, 23 is my limit, I hope everyone has a great day, it’s my Friday and tomorrow I am in studio with Shanon J recording our show which airs Saturday evenings.

Headache

I have a raging headache, I hit my head on my desk yesterday, I was getting something I dropped and hit my head. I don’t even know if I am coherent at this point.
I would like to say thank you to the men and women who work the polling places, they deal with a lot of people all day long, some pleasant, some not so much. By the time I arrived they had been there since 7:00 am, they were all pleasant and helpful and had smiles on their faces. I appreciate their willingness to be there all day and in some instances learn a new skill. They now use laptops, scanners and card readers, it is a whole new skill set since the majority of these workers are elderly. They were wonderful, pleasant and kind, I love you all.
I spent my evening watching old episodes of Lois and Clark; The New Adventures of Superman, the episodes: ones where Dean Cain is in that black spandex outfit. I thought I had just about died and gone to heaven. My favorite episodes, he looks so awesome in that thing, I wonder if he got to keep it. Food for thought my friends, I bet he would still look good in that thing.
I am really wanting Cheetos right now, yes for breakfast, I want some, I need some, I am so happy I don’t have change so I can’t go to the vending machine. I have fruit and yogurt and I shall stick with that, never fear, I am determined to be 98 pounds. Maybe if I locked myself up for a year and just lived on cardboard I could achieve that goal. But I don’t think that is gonna happen, especially with our November Ladies that Lunch being this Saturday. We are trying a new place and I cannot wait, it looks amazing.
I shall sign off for now, I have a headache and I have to make it go away, coffee wont help this one as it is a bump on the head causing it. So no self medicating with caffeine.

Dean Cain and Voting

People overshare. It’s a statement, not a question; once again I blame social media for this phenomenon that is happening. I have to be honest I long for the days when people didn’t talk about their personal ailments, by that I mean personal, private medical issues, embarrassing medical issues. I do not share what my issues are, except my arm hurts right now, I don’t know what is wrong with it. Other than that, if there is something else going on, I will not be announcing it on Facebook, Twitter or here for that matter.
Whew, I feel better, now, on to better things, Alex called me last night and said “Mom, you are going to be so proud of me.” Since this was Alex, I held my breath, it could be anything, he then said “I voted today”. I am so proud of him! He exercised his American right and made his voice known. It is his first presidential election and I am so proud he voted. I asked him if he got a sticker and he did not, I also asked if he took a picture and he said he started to but thought they might frown upon that.
I will be voting on the day of, I am a purist, no early voting for me, I even took two hours off to make sure I had enough time to hit the voting site.
So yesterday I went home and watched an episode of Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman, featuring Dean Cain in blue tights. Best. Evening. Ever. Dean Cain still the prettiest man on the planet earth, I don’t know if he is just aging well or if he has good doctors and I don’t even care. I love him with my whole teenaged soul heart. Yes, I know that is the biggest mess of a sentence, however, I don’t care.
Not a lot exciting going on today, will be working and then going home to watch Castle so BBFF (Jess) and I can discuss it, as he is bursting at the seams to tell me all.

Things I am Obsessed With

Straws
Milk Duds
Popcorn (Pop Secret Homestyle)
Starbucks
Nashville (the show)
Grimm
The Walking Dead
Castle
Joss Whedon
Dean Cain
Purple (the color)
Frito Chili Pie
Revolution (the show)
Shoes
Thor
The Avengers
Boots
Snow
Animals
Homeland
The Real Housewives of New Jersey
See Dad Run (Scott Baio rules!)

Dean Cain Defection?

I have a dilemma, as you all know I own The Avengers movie, if you don’t know that you don’t know me. So anyway, I love Thor, not the actor that plays him in this movie, I love Thor himself. I always have since discovering the Norse mythologies.
Now, I have a working theory, that if I watch The Avengers enough, I will eventually assimilate into the movie itself and become Thor’s new love interest. Don’t want to hear about Natalie Portman, Jess….
Now here is my dilemma, is this cheating on Dean Cain? My love of Thor predates my love for Dean Cain, although my love for Dean has been a little consuming. If I am assimilated into the movie will I lose my knowledge of Dean? Will I no longer be able to watch him on old episodes of Lois and Clark? Will he know I have defected and my affections are elsewhere?
Here is my other challenge; I have to be wearing the right outfit when I am eventually assimilated. I have the right boots; it is just a matter of finding the right outfit to go with said boots as I will be wearing it from that point forward. I don’t see many costume changes in the movie. But here is another thing, should I wait for the next Thor movie to try and insinuate myself into it? There is not a lot of time for romance in this movie, tons of action, yes, romantic pursuits, no. So there you have it, I have many decisions to make regarding Thor and Dean Cain.
You know the funny thing is I have watched Dean Cain in Lois and Clark countless times and I have never been made part of the show. However I have a theory on that as well, since every episode is different there is little time to really incorporate myself into the story line. Since the movie is the same every time I fully believe eventually I will become part of it. I have seen The Avengers a total of 5 times now; I foresee a 6th time on the horizon.
What I am curious about is how many times does it take? Does anyone out there know? Please feel free to share any raw data you might have.
As for my relationship with Dean Cain, well, I still love him, with my whole heart and no matter what universe I end up in, he will always be my main obsession. Still waiting for him to come to town, he is after all in my pre-nup.