Profound Sadness

I have a deep, profound sadness today; I haven’t slept all night so forgive me if this post is disjointed. I learned last night that a very dear friend could simply be losing her battle with cancer. This is her 3rd round with the beast in the 20 years I have known her.
I vividly remember the first time I met her, my oldest son had just started kindergarten and for the first week he came home every day talking about one particular little boy. So I asked him if his new friend rode the bus home or if his mommy came to pick him up. He said that his new friend’s mommy came to pick him up. I told him that when I picked him up the next day to point them out to me and I would introduce myself and see if we could arrange a play date.
The next day I go to pick up Jeffrey and said ok, which one is your friend, he says he’s over there and randomly points. So I said son, there are a lot of little boys with mommies over there, he said, he has on a blue shirt. Well, this was kindergarten; there were at least 5 little boys with blue shirts on. I explain this to my son, he sighs and grabs my hand and takes me over to meet his new friend.
I was faced with the most gorgeous, sophisticated woman I had ever met. For the first time in my life I felt a little intimidated, she immediately put me at ease and explained that she didn’t let her son go to just anyone’s house, nicely of course, and that perhaps she could come over with him. That agreed with me as I love making new friends. She then explained she was a Mary Kay Beauty Consultant and would I mind having a facial. Would I ever! That was even more up my alley. So began a lifelong friendship of not only myself and her, but between our sons.
I think our sons spent equal time between our two homes, I consider her son my son, and he is a member of our family as is she. She not only generously shared her son with us; she has shared her mother with me when mine passed away.
I am both angry and sad, I am angry because she didn’t tell any of us how bad it was this time, not one word. Not that any of us could have vanquished this monster, but we could have helped her with chores or errands or simply telling her a funny story to lift her spirits.
I am asking that everyone lift up a prayer for my friend and her family, and all of us that love her.

2 Replies to “Profound Sadness”

  1. Oh I am so sorry to hear this and I am thinking and praying for you, your family, her and her family as well. Cancer is viscious and so difficult to go through. I am sorry for your sadness and hold tight to those fond memories you have for all of those many years, they are like gold. Love you, and let me know if you need anything at all.

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